this dream will never end till the day when i get back to where i belong to...

What if

2012-02-08T08:01:00.000-08:00

What if you found out that there's someone waiting for you?
what if that certain girl cries everyday, just thinking abt you?
worries filled in her head, wondering if you'll be there for her again, she'll be there for you.

What if feelings fade?
will they come back to you again?

What if I complaint to you abt all those insults thrown at me?
Would you comfort me like before?
Or laugh it out and say "its true" ?

What if I say "I love you" again,
what would you do?
grab the chance and be mine again?
or push it away as if I'm some kind of rubbish to you?

would you be mine and I'll be yours again?

Damn

2012-02-08T07:54:00.000-08:00

Mood's gone haywire lately :/
sometimes happy,sometimes not
sometimes emo,sometimes not
hate it!
i wanna be a happy girl again
with no regrets,no unhappiness,no rubbish in my head =.=

2011-07-16T02:43:00.000-07:00

Hey all! it's been a super long time ever since i've updated this blog! XD Cause i was lazy and there's nothing interesting that happened much!

well,except for yesterday's concert!XD

My school held a B2B(be to become) concert to celebrate the 25th anniversary of the schl! XD

surprisingly, the schl gave me a free ticket! and i get to go with my other 6 std mates XD

so fun~ and hyper~ XD

I couldn't elaborate much cause i have not much time (and im lazy! XD) so i'll just post pics XD

All pics are from Lin's phone XD

oh!!! and today's yuuki chan's bday! XD happy birthday to her~!

(fasting month is coming! not only that but the realease of Super Junior's 5jib would be during fasting month! DX = no allowance for the month= can't buy 5jib! oh well, i have to wait till September if i wanna buy XD)

2011-05-14T17:57:00.000-07:00

"But you know... All celebrities has their Anti's

But really now... If you hate them so much,

Instead of going around spouting rumors that "Oh! He's Gay!" "He's a flirt!" "He's a jerk!"

Just shut your screen or TV off, flip your newspapers away from that section and mind you own business!

What happens if they're actually nice? Won't they feel hurt?

I'm sure everyone knows what I'm trying to say

If you don't know the person, don't spread stuff that you sound like you know everything about him.

If you hate that person, keep it to yourself, don't bother to spread your hatred around, its really not worth it really.

Just live your life and enjoy it instead of ruining other people's lives

I think I suddenly wrote about this because I remembered Hangeng's Anti-Fans incident :(

(Heh, from JustinB to Hangeng xD)

Just because he's from China, Antis sprouts T_T

Miss him! >.< Hope to see him together with SUJU soon!~"

(cr: oneechan's blogpost)

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and i agree with her, if we hate ppl we should just ignore them and enjoy our lives

why bother disturbing them and calling them names for?

it is just wasting ur time and make OTHER ppl hate you (esp if u are an anti to a celebrity)

so why not just ignore them and enjoy ur lives without thinking abt them

just thinking abt them makes urselves angry rit :D

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just suddenly thought of my grandparents after kaixian texting me " my grandma dunt let me go out cause i still got cough"her grandma's so sweet to her. dunt wan her to get more sick :)im not so close to my grandparents of relatives (both relationship way and distance way XD)and i suddenly thought of them passing away( wth choi choi!!!)would i cry for them?i knw i would be sad though. i also realized how far apart my family is to relatives, well we cant help it since alot of things happened in the past :X

ahhhh *pushes negative thoughts away

2011-05-12T01:41:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry, but we were not friends ever since last year.
u still don't get it do u?
u still don't understand what u did wrong
and i won't tell u what u did wrong
u need to find out urself

2011-04-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

just decided to blog again...
not because i have nothing to do ! i have tons of things to do. But my mood is pulling me away from my things.
i just feel so moody today. =.= after schl that is.
though i was happy that maam said she will buy for me a file that i wanted :D
she was like "u wan uhh? ok i buy for u, fri i pass to u."
i was shocked! XD my seniors are always so kind to me :) always helping me out even though they didn't knw my problems XD gaha
i really feel like signing on all of a sudden. still haven't asked mum abt this =.=
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

starting to like Kevin and Dongho from Ukiss! they are so adorable! (but of course i still think my Sungmin is much more better XD)

wooooo......
wait...
look at the time...
i should get back to do my stuff ^^llll

2011-02-18T20:08:00.000-08:00

no matter how angry i might get to u all, i still love TPSJAB!
yes,we are small but so what? we are close. close enough to hug anyone that we see crying in the family.
yesterday night was one of the most memorable nights that i have with TPSJAB. we had reunion dinner and it was awesome. even though the food was okok, its the things that we do that made it memorable. std 3s'11 dance and comedy speech, std 4s'11 dance + sing to hello and aaron's yoyo, std 2s'11 singing to baby and their touching speech that made DLYT cry ( its not even pop yet!),the newbies std 1'11 singing and the times spent with std 4s'11 practicing and singing along~
it was really memorable.
and how can i forget,i cried as i was too afraid to go home as sengkang is super scary. and guess wat? 3 or my sirs actually escorted me home. and they live in tampines! they go all the way to sengkang just to see me reach home safely and go home late. how nice can they get?
TPSJAB is the most best CCA that i have. more better then my choir cause of the memories.
yesterday night had made me think about signing on. yes, im still considering and 80% of me wants to sign on but that 20% is the problem. if my family problems is solved by end of this year, then i would gladly be signing on~ sec 3s! u might see me again :D

2011-02-09T06:10:00.000-08:00

sadness.this is wat i get for caring,this is wat i get for being happy for their good news.
this is wat i get for being happy for std mates. thanks
its meant to be a happy day today.
hangeng oppa,im sorry for crying on your birthday :(

2011-02-07T16:00:00.000-08:00

I miss them,
I miss 15 and i really do
I miss the times when they smile together as a whole
I miss the times when they cry tears of happiness
I miss the wacky times of Super Junior as a whole
I miss the times of SS1 and SS2
I miss Hangeng
I miss Kibum
I miss Kangin
I miss Leetuek
I miss Heechul
I miss Yesung
I miss Shindong
I miss Sungmin
I miss Eunhyuk
I miss Donghae
I miss Zhou mi
I miss Siwon
I miss Ryeowook
I miss Kyuhyun
I miss Henry
When i see the wacky times of SuJu in videos
I cried
I cried because i miss them
I cried because i want to see them happy together again
I knw for sure,they are not as happy as before now :(
I want to see their real smiles again

Nothing else will make me happy completely until i see 15 again
Even the crazy bunch of satd 4s '11, they wont make me happy
Only Super Junior makes me really happy :(
All I wan is for Super Junior to be 15 again :'(

2011-02-02T21:36:00.000-08:00

030211
Saeng-il chugha hamiday cho kyuhyun!
the evil magnae in SuJu
One of the powerful voice in SuJu!
i dunno wat to do if u werent in SuJu!D= everything would be different! Thanks for completing SuJu! Thanks for being in SuJu! Remember to stay healthy Cho Kyuhyun! dont get sick and dont overwork yourself in ur career and continue being our Evil magnae of the 3 Evils in SuJu! XD (the other 2 are Kibum and Heechul oppa)
SARANGHAEYO CHO KYUHYUN! XD

2011-02-02T01:16:00.000-08:00

IMT :((

I am back to blogging!
after a long day of settling my blogskin i am done! ^^
i love the blogskin and i like the tabs of "About SuJu" and "About my life" esp. the GIF of SuJu ^^
hehhehehe

I am hungry right now~ food food,i want food! unfortunately there is nothing to eat ><.

2011-01-23T08:57:00.000-08:00

this blog is currently being edited...
pls wait till i settle all the goodies~

2010-12-31T20:28:00.000-08:00

10111
A special date for our one and only Lee Sungmin! <3
It's his birthday today! <3
saeng-il chugha hamida! <3
The one and only Lee Sungmin!
The Lee Sungmin ELFs <3
The Lee Sungmin Super Junior <3
The Lee Sungmin I <3
Thanks for being born,
Thanks for being in Super Junior
Thanks for being in my life,
Thanks for being in ELFs life
Without you,Super Junior would be different,
MY LIFE would be different.
Everything will change.
And I'm lucky that im ur ELF <3
Im lucky that i'm in the sapphire blue sea.
I'm happy that u are in my life and even thought u dunt knw me,
i hope that u are happy in ur life too.
U are happy that ELFs are here for u right?
Right now i hope u are enjoying ur day~ hope that u are spending it happily. How i wish i can celebrate ur birthday! and how i wish i can go for SS3 S'pore and shout "saeng-il chugha hamida!" to you during the concert. But its ok. for i knw that u knw that all ELFs are wishing you a happy birthday!
Hope u stay as
The cute
The coolThe charming
The hot
And our one and only pumpkin,
LEE SUNGMIN

saeng-il chugha hamida,Lee Sungmin! <3
Saranghaeyo Lee Sungmin! <3

2010-12-05T01:12:00.000-08:00

I currently <3 this song
i think this kinda describe the 'me' now :D

2010-11-10T15:56:00.000-08:00

i wan to see 13 again,
i wan to see their smiles again
i wan to see them reunited again
i wan to see them together again
happy together
i wan to help them get 13 again
i wan to make them smile again
i wan to help them win the golden award again
I JUST WANT TO SEE THEM SMILING AGAIN :'(

2010-10-31T02:06:00.001-07:00

it looks...weird -.-

2010-10-24T05:14:00.000-07:00

i've decided after a long though,from now on my love goes to ELFs and Super Junior
goodbye illusions,i know that all of u will disappear one day but i did not know that it will be too soon
but who cares,i dunt wanna care anymore,i dunt wan to waste my time on any of u
i have my own life,and my life revolves around ELFs and Super Junior,thats the life i want

2010-10-22T20:04:00.000-07:00

it was as if all those memories are fake,it was as if all those troubles never happen,it was as if we never knew each other. should i continue to trust all of u all? should i continue lovin all of u? should i continue to believer in all of u?till the end of graduation? or till the end of time? i have no clue.

but what i want to believe is that i can get my trust of all of u back,
that i can start believing in u all again and that i can start lovin
all of u again. i wanna shout "STD 3s '10 SARANGHAEYO" again :)

2010-10-20T01:04:00.001-07:00

i've lost trust in all 9 of u

2010-10-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

to our fishy Lee Donghae!!!!! :D:D

happy birthday to you!! :D:D love u to the max. !!! (i love each member to the max .)

always be our fishy,cheeky,hyper and lovable lee donghae! have a great day ahead!!! :D:D

hwaiting!

(im meant to study right now :X)

2010-10-12T16:33:00.000-07:00

heechul oppa has become really popular in twitter! :D his name have been #1 in the trending tweets ever since Saturday at around 5pm! whatever it is even if it was on henry oppa's birthday on mon,his name was still #1 in the trending tweets! but of course #happymochiday was second :D oppa is super popular. i hope this has made a lot of people curious and go watch super junior's mvs or something! i wish for more ELFs! :D

exams are ongoing in my school while most of the schools are done with their exams! soo good, why is my school so slow lol. at least the point is that after 2 weeks of exams there is only going to be 1 week of school before the holidays is up! yay! that means i have now 3 weeks of school left :P but the bad note is that sec 3s still have to go to school during school holidays for step programme D: meaning extra lessons! D: i wan holidays! faster end school!
4 papers of exams is over and i have around 3 or 5 papers left!after that im gonna relax for a bit before starting back with my cca !

heehee for now Heechul oppa hwaiting! i hope your name will stay on#1 for at least one week!NO! 1 MONTH! hahas hwaiting!

2010-10-11T02:03:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to our dearest Henry!! :D:D

2010-10-08T23:41:00.000-07:00

awwww heemin :D:D fmr SS2!!!!!
ahhh shall resist temptation to drwa till 19th oct! for now,shall study!!!!

2010-10-01T21:14:00.000-07:00

waaa gonna move during exam period??
how to cope like that??

2010-09-28T04:26:00.000-07:00

^^ heeheee~
this pic made my day!!!XD
heeheeee! i think i WILL do my homework whenever i see this XD

now i REALLY wanna go to SS3 !!! that badly till i cry my heart out if i never go :'(

2010-09-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to shindong oppa!!! have a happy day today!! X) weee wish u all the best!XD

2010-09-25T20:43:00.000-07:00

2010-09-22T03:51:00.001-07:00

i hate schl now,honestly :(

2010-09-21T04:00:00.000-07:00

seeing sungmin oppa laughing during a variety show just now
and it was a live one which means that its today :)
feel very happy seeing him happy!
i feel very very happy when i see super junior happy!!!:D
hate schl now ttm really hate it,hate group works and somehow i dunt seem to reply to anyone whom i seldom tok to or never tok to. cant even say a single hi when they say hi
but honestly,i hate sch now,no point going to schl when cant even study there
i would rather study at home then take the tests and exams in schl
no need lessons,then i would be very happy
but thats not gonna happen,so not true :(

2010-09-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

i miss you,i really do
i kept thinking about u today and even cried in class when u came across my mind :(
i know that what u have decided and done is the best for u and yes, i do agree so as well. i understand that this was the best and that u could not take it
but i really miss you being with ur 12 brothers,ur 14 family members
saw ur picture the other day in a magazine,could not understand the headline thought as it is chinese. hope it is good news about you :) and i know that it is good news,i bet. :) and yes im happy for ur new album and the success of ur career now.but i still could not forget the sad and painful experiences u had. but i will continue to support you. as i know and ELFs know, that even thought u are not in SME anymore,
YOU ARE STILL A SUPER JUNIOR MEMBER IN OUR HEARTS :D
for now,i wish you all the best! HANGENG OPPA!HWAITING!JIAYOU! :)
ELFs still LOVE U!and so do I!

Let Super Junior get the Golden Disk Grand Prize again!

2010-09-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

yes believe in them!
will always support them and love them
if i have the money,i would buy the albums!
but even if i couldnt buy, they have my love and support!!!!
Super Junior!ELFs would be there for you!
WE ARE ELFs~!ORYO~! SARANGHAE~!!

2010-09-18T01:56:00.000-07:00

hahahahahah im gonna download this game and i have no idea why i even start to play the "professor layton" games it all starts with the "professor layton and the curious village" game -.- and i start to get addicted to puzzles :D
interesting to solve~

days pass as per normal and somehow i dunt feel like drawing
and i dunt seem to wan to talk abt the last ep of kuroshitjutsi T^T
confusing yet sad looo~
neither do i wanna tok abt yesterday's PD lalalalla
dunt seem to wan to talk abt anything~

【UTAU-PV】 Yellow 【Utaune Nami】

2010-09-16T00:22:00.000-07:00

love this song alot!esp when nami sings to it!love her voice!love the song :D:D
one of the best Utau's is her!ooh and i love her drawings to the max!hope to learn lots from her :D:D

2010-09-13T00:34:00.000-07:00

missing every single one of u :(

2010-09-11T05:16:00.000-07:00

i miss 13 D:

2010-09-08T17:34:00.000-07:00

sungmin oppa wat are you doing?XD so damn cute, no everyone in Super Junior IS cute when they do cute things
and when they are cool,they are cool as well XD Super Junior is Everything!There is no other like Super Junior!!!
homework had been killing me,sleeping at 12-1am after slacking and studying and waking up at 5am the next day just to do at least one homework and someone had unfortunately given my class many hw for her subject,and the homeworks come from high scoring schools somemoreX( how can we even do it?!super hard luhhh

nvm push all the -ve stuff away from my mind and push all super Junior stuff and info in me!!!XDwooots still super excited that SS3 is in 29th jan 2010!!!!XD SUPER HAPPY!
unfortunately i cant buy the tix with my own money,mum dunt even let me buy!!!:( but im willing to push my luck and hope that there would be free giveaways by their organizers >< please please please!!!!!begging you!!!!but if there is no giveaways im gonna try my best to score very well in the end of year exams so that mum can somehow reward me with a SS3 tix!XD wishin wishin for that to come true~hahas
for now just wish antis would bug off away from super junior!
E.L.Fs shall push u off!We'll protect Super Junior!you all have no chance,we have more ppl then u,even overseas!so IF u all dunt mind GET LOST please :D

Super Junior hwaiting!,we E.L.Fs would protect you one!XD

2010-09-03T05:36:00.000-07:00

yahooo~back for posting^^

finally school is over,well for one week at least but so damn happy ^^

i would rather self study then go schl

today's archery course was awesome ^^ so fun fun! first up was a lecture:D some pics of arrows piercing through was shown O.O mostly everyone was disgusted,some even screamed lol

hahas then start shooting arrows ^^ at first i was so scared of shooting but then after a few shots felt that it was easier to shoot ^^ hahas then went for individual competition see who can shoot the best,overall kaixian won ^^ then went to team competition!^^ teamed with Atifah,kee-chan mf and kh ^^ won third ^^ waha

after all that went off home ~

now gonna do some crappy pile of hw tyvm to someone~byes~

2010-09-01T01:57:00.000-07:00

i find kyunhyun oppa super attractive in the mv "super girl" XD
failed drawing :(

currently gonna study soon
gaah 2 test comin up tmr!!>< boring boring day~
many ppl are upset today,including me :( BUT!!cheer up ppl :D we have each other :D
hwaiting~~~

2010-08-31T01:51:00.000-07:00

:( ayaki!!T^T

hi everyone~im back!!!!!:D:D
currently rotting hahas even though i wanna draw :P
schl was boring during lessons,gosh i even fall asleep in bio
hahas but the celebration in assembly is fun!
ppl singing songs,
Ooo!and 2 groups of students dancing to run devil run and lucifer respectively nicenice!^^
but wat i enjoy most was when 3 gals frm celine jessandra sch came!^^
2 of them danced so amazingly to "HUH" by 4 minute ^^
it was awesome~if only i could dance as well as them!!^^
i looked through the schl's website and i found out that they are even teaching some super junior song dances ^^ if only i can join the so called schl its like teach ppl how dance!of course need pay thats why i couldnt join the lessons T^T
dunt forget SS3 gosh i really wan go that badly!its a need for me :( unfortunately i really have no money,+ my mum dont allow me to work,cause she thinks that i wont be able to handle it :(
nvm shall push all away for now :D
just work hard and see how much will get for money
try my best in giveaways and others that can make me have a chance to win ss3 tickets ^^if i receive it for free,my mum would allow me to go rit?never waste money
hahas will try my best ^^ HWAITING~

2010-08-29T17:57:00.000-07:00

this is cute ^^~"Urineun Super Juni-OYO"
"Urineun E.l.f-Oyo!"
will always remember the words ^^
as an E.L.F i'll support them all the way
even if their numbers decrease in performances
in our hearts it will always be 13 brothers and 15 in a family
I 13elive in them ^^ and always will
as an E.L.F i'll cry along with them,laugh with them and be angry with them
as an E.L.F i'll support them,cheer them on,care for them and love them all the way ^^
as an E.L.F, this is what i have and need to do!
as an E.L.F, i'll never give up on them
SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!!
HWAITING!!!
E.L.Fs will be there for U all the way!!!!
SARANGHAEEEE!

LeeteukHeechulHangengYesungKanginShindongSungminEunhyukDonghaeSiwonRyeowookKibumKyuhyun saranghae~!

2010-08-28T15:32:00.000-07:00

heeeheeeeeeeeeeee~
YO MINNAAA!!!!!XDXD
im overly happy and excited!!!!!XDXD
why?
hahas!!! THE DATE OF SS3 IS CONFIMED!
29TH JAN 2011!!!!XDXDXD
i dunt have to worry abt the date anymore!!!!!
now im worried abt the price ><><>< waha!!!!!
so damn excited can!!!!!
weeeeeeeeSUPER JUNIOR HWAITING!
SEE U ALL ON THE 29TH JAN!
SARANGHAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!XD

2010-08-27T06:56:00.000-07:00

yahooo~! back for posting X)

had fun well not really in schl today hahas well conversations are fun during class,boring lessons as usual! weee

after schl for course got RT!

footdrills and some matters that i have to settle waha

after all activities,2 of my darling cadets have finally promoted to LCP!!congrats congrats to both of U! love u all~

after that go eat Ice cream with carol,lin,M, kaixian joshua and mai feng!had fun time laughing away with them! but we were too noisy :X sry to those who were in the shop!

after eat go see headbands!!so cute one!and some suitable for cosplays for goth lolita and etc!^^

walked home with KX talk abt cosplay and etc. all the way~ never feel tired for that period of time until i stepped home!suddenly body feel so tired!><~ hahas

currently doing my wig now! i wanna cosplay during AFA!X) well without her uniform,i have no choice :(

2010-08-24T03:44:00.000-07:00

BOO! YAHOO!back to posting!!! 3 days ago,it was the killer smile KIBUM OPPA's birthday!!!yay^^ and today~is none other then the darling,artistic voice YESUNG OPPA! happy birthday to u oppa! Love u to the core!!!best wishes to u for the musical,SS3,family,super junior and everything!!!!!!!:D:D wootwoot! yay yesung oppa!!!! SARANGHAE~

currently nt feeling well cum emo
i dunt wan go schl luh,hate it,wat is schl for when i cant concentrate and study there?!
i'll never improve at this rate!!!

found out that my drawings are deproving!might even stop drawing forever :( IT SUCKS

2010-08-23T00:57:00.000-07:00

ahhh if only this is true D: a photoshopped pic by dunno who
but its confirmed that hangeng hyung would be going to SS3 in one place of China dunno wheather its participate or watch but its good that his relationship is still well with super junior ^^ for now,HWAITING~
emo all day in class waahhh super boring and upset luhhh
all mixed emotions in me somemore head is like going to burst pain like hell :(
but after school sort of feel better talk talk but still upset!
still cant believe that SHE can get ... while i cant! even friends whom are not from .... also cant believe that she got it,even one of my junior luhh >:( ahh push those negative stuff away! will work hard to get mine!prove that i will get till the top!!
waaa so after schl while walking with M to near the traffic light suddenly Aston,my snco cum team mate, jumped infront of us!we shout so loudly waha like all of a sudden long time never see him also somemore he so much taller then us! so high
wahh other EVSS snco mates are also there~:D they actually wan get smthing that they left frm the stjohn room,unfortunately cant help them,have to rush home and somemore we dunt have the key :\
but wat surprises me is that i can talk to them casually waha its like during snco time never talk to them much then after snco can? so weird :D
but i good sight too,after all we've been through as a whole SNCO and after that still can talk like this:D hope to see them soon :P now off to draw! shall try to improve!hwaiting~

2010-08-20T22:37:00.000-07:00

happy birthday Kim Kibum oppa! best wishes to u! E.L.Fs will always be there for u be it SuJu activities or ur acting!!^^ SARANGHAE~ HWAITING!

2010-08-19T21:01:00.000-07:00

similar?X) drew this after having an inspiration frm the above pic X)XD

never go schl for the past 2 days,basically cause no one is taking care of my siblings at home
but also cause i have no mood and watsoever to go
i'll be totally upset if i even come
totally upset till i'll lose my temper == so its best if i stay at home :)
but super junior makes my day!^^
heard that SS3 on 14 and 15 aug last week was awesome!
saw many pictures and fancams of the concert and it looks that they super junior were enjoying thier time!they even piggyback each other,dress up as vegetables,walking around and even spray water at each other
kyuhyun sprayed water at his hyungs LOL :P
evil magnae~
but there were sad times,like they put a special segment for kangin :(
but its good that they somehow let him perform with them :)
oh and kibum hyung never perform with them,he watched :) my guess is because that he doesnt knw the songs? or maybe he is too busy to rehearsh with them :(
watever it is,its good that it was a success~will wait for them to come to S'pore!X)
SUPER JUNIOR HWAITING!

2010-08-18T23:15:00.000-07:00

done with this ^^

2010-08-14T23:13:00.001-07:00

sir zheng yee :D

"do you find this annoying?"LOL

maam ting ting :D:D

2010-08-14T06:31:00.000-07:00

never tok much then in the end,some efforts waste away,family conflicts due to snco :( still never get :(

no mood how tok?i also dunno...in the end,never get :( feeling depressed that we never make it as 10 as wat we always do,2 years down the road,always 10 will get,then now?wahhh sad sad day :( never expect this to happen loo :( cry like mad,made others cry...but never cry because of wat i never succeed,cry cause we never pass out as a std :( i wan 10 and 10 forever!achieve as 10,have fun as 10 and even though fail,i wan 1o together :( but not happening,conflicts happening again,i wan it to stop,even though there are sm things that we dunt like,we are still a std :( more -ve thoughts comin in after today but will not reveal here :(

congrats to those who have become sgts :D happy yet hurt to see u guys accomplising after all the efforts :D

10 more days to YESUNG hyung's Bday! :D

6 more days to KIBUM hyung's Bday!:D

happy to knw that SS 3 was a success :D even though today's a sad day for me,i'll be happy for Super Junior! Super Junior hwaiting!

oh ya,when i see team five showing a 5 sign with their hands, the words "oreyo super juni-ORYO!!!"

2010-08-07T01:06:00.000-07:00

boo!redrew Satoshi :)

feeling upset and depressed these few days esp. yesterday
stupid comment luuhh
but will move on,will prove that my drawings are not suckish by improving,its only weird i knw i myself can see that my drawings are weird in a way!

friday NDP! vomit in middle of parade!cause never eat dinner X.XWHS!embarrassing,esp. embarassing stjohn :(
after sch while the others leave me alone to movies,shopping and watsoever,
im stuck doing public duty with joshua dalene and stone stone mai feng :(
but nvm at least its not boring,total casualties 3!O.O and the cause is mainly the heat!singapore's weather abit crazy liao!
when its hot,its really damn hot until u can faint!and when its raining,its raining like siao!until some parts start to flood
but prefer raining :)
after that go eat ice cream with dalene and kaixian
wah then walk walk then homed!
can finally draw for 5 days!~
wooo!so fun second day of drawing today and gonna draw on paper liao!X)
JANGGGGGGG!XD

2010-08-06T00:58:00.000-07:00

whats the point of being happy..when u are going to get hurt again?

2010-08-05T04:57:00.001-07:00

finally drew Ayaki X) with me :P

2010-08-04T06:07:00.000-07:00

dunt leave us :( we want and need u
U need us
there is no 9 or 8 or 7 or 6 there is only 10 and 10 only! :(
pls im begging u till i cry like a whale
dunt leave us :(

2010-08-04T04:46:00.000-07:00

thank you the whole lot who had wished me a happy bday!^^
and thks std 3s,herny and qiu meng for the 'surprise' cake!^^ i actually knw in the first place but its ok waha!luv the whole lot of U!!!!!

many negetive things happened but shoo it away~
watever it is,the ppl who have been affected, JYJY!

2010-08-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

2010-07-31T23:39:00.000-07:00

currently watching this anime black butler season 2^^

interesting though

fav. character in the anime is...^^^ up there

the crazy,hyper,childish,pampered and a sadist Alios Trancy

i could say that i understand why he acts like how he is right now

u cant say that he doesnt have a heart,he does is just that he's afraid ^^

onne-chan keep saying that she dunno whether to hate him or like him lol ^^

super junior KRY concert ongoing now i think

well its today but i cant watch them or go there

all the way in japan and plus tmr still got school sian

feeling down nowadays which had made me draw sad pictures :(

2010-07-31T02:16:00.001-07:00

i dunt even knw what to do anymore
seriously
i dunno who to trust and who to not to anymore
those who are so called close to me are totally not caring at all
and those who are not close cares
i really somehow dunno who to trust anymore :(

2010-07-29T01:32:00.000-07:00

im dumb yes i am
but i'll improve u'll see!
im juggling many things for my life ok!
tpsjab,studies,school,siblings,family friends!
im not like you who always get top and dunt even care for others!
im not like you who only care about you and ur studies alone!
i'll get higher then u,you'll see -.-
pissed off for the day by someone
but mum somehow cheered me up
going out with mum!^^v

Anime speedpaint,Ami and Amu OC

2010-07-27T04:26:00.000-07:00

2010-07-27T04:24:00.000-07:00

Love love super junior forever!any insults to them will be banished and the insulter would be punished >:< wah

posting due to dunno why
emoemo for few days already
everytime go home either scolded my mum or argue with siblings
watever it is,my attitude still sucks -.- and now its the attitude at home -.-
gaah! will change change!!!<3

should i or should i not?i dunno
i dunt wann hurt others neither do i wan hurt myself :(
i totally dunno wat to do anymore!!!

I WAN Super Show 3 tickets *.* though i dunno when will it be held in S'pore though! but i will wait for the sake of Super Junior!!!!HWAITING!

2010-07-25T04:59:00.001-07:00

snco and course day is finally over!all that is left is POP can finally rest for a long while :)

2010-07-20T21:26:00.001-07:00

bored bored bored zzz

2010-07-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

pissed off since yesterday >:(
a certain smone never show me respect since yesterday
expect me to give u respect?i say im fasting yet u still purposely talk about food and tempt me with food funny is it?for U! never respect me at all :(

overheard that there's a possibility of moving to somewhere far away!
i dunt wan!
+ might even change school!i more dunt want!i still want to be a TPSJAB std 3s '10 member!
i still wan see my friends,i still wan stay in the school!:(
i dunt wan change school :(

push all the negetive thoughts away!
but somehow cant :(
just now got A math test jialat never study cause i dunno :(
tmr E math test but dunt wan study no mood at all :(

2010-07-19T03:35:00.000-07:00

the cute side of sungmin oppa X)

the cool side of him X) ahhhh both is good X)

wahaha yo ppl~fasting today~so happy can loose weight X)
somemore eating kfc for break fast more happy!!!
can try the new chicken mum said that it is very spicy wahahaha
cant wait to eat i love to eat!
oh ya!heard that kibum oppa would be coming backfor SS3!!!!YAY \^^/ so happy~
tooodayyy class super boriiiiiiiiiing~
have to do 700 word essay can i do it?
dunno leh confirm take long time to do
will do it tmr
so many stuff to do ><
but dunt have the proper stuff to do it yet -.-
jaa~

Ayako,im me (OC) anime speedpaint

2010-07-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

2010-07-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

ugly rit
draw fast fast one :(
never go school yesterday
dunt want say reason either
sian sian at least i get to reflect again yesterday
as usual will say again,gonna try my best all the time
i hope
tmr might meet with snco mates for snco matters of course
problem is that i dunt think i can get out of the house tmr though -.- helppp!!!! ><
sian sian
last but not least a picture of super junior!!!:D:D?
V^^

2010-07-15T22:00:00.001-07:00

universal studio with TPSJAB on 260610 is the day i'll never forget!drew std 3s 10 here :D:D

i can finally draw smthing else XD

2010-07-13T03:58:00.000-07:00

waha found this in deviant art!does not belong to me hor another E.L.F made it X) LOVES~

so happy~not because of the days but because of Super Junior!X)
last week won 2 times for 'NO OTHER' damn nice~
wahah another thing is that i hear someone listening to BONAMANA in the bus while going home!X) its spreading good good so happy X)
wahah days per normal
and as the usual tuesdays i survived 4 periods of A math
my brain was dying and for the last 1 hr i cant seem to think
well at least i got listen XP
but other lessons cannot pay attention properly!
right back left all noise noise noise and noise
then my mind went off to dreamland liao X(
nvm :D:D at least my mind never drift away from super junior!XD
love them,support them and cheer them on till the end of time!spread the super junior love!spread the sapphire blue sea!!!!XD

Today's Winner (Jul,11,10)

2010-07-11T02:12:00.000-07:00

yay~yup yup they won again~wooo~wait for next week's winning!^^

Today's Winner (Jul,9,10)

2010-07-10T18:59:00.000-07:00

yay ^^ no other won #1 rank XD goooooooooo~

2010-07-08T07:58:00.000-07:00

ugly rit?failed drawings!!!!

scoldings and scoldings and scoldings when will it stop
sheesh,when i do smthing good,kena scolded.
when i do smthing bad,also kena scolded.
not just by my mum
like kena scolded by everyone i knw?
watever luhhh
dunt wan to trust anyone anymore,losing my trust to everyone,somehow even my std:(
breaking up adn they dunt seem to care i dunt seem to want to care :(
i'll just wait for new stuff to happen,just as always
and soon...they will rot away frm my life as usual,its always the same process -.-
i just have to cherish wat i have now until they rot away frm my life
BUT NOT SUPER JUNIOR!THEY WILL NEVER ROT AWAY FROM MY LIFE!WILL ALWAYS STAY IN MY HEART :D SUPER JUNIOR FIGHTING!
speaking of super junior...They are coming to s'pore for SS3!i knew this long time ago and yet im typing now :P i wan go to SS3! but confirm very ex but im willing to save money to go there!!!
still got AFA and other camps at end of the year!
hope SS3 is in jan next year!then will go one(that is if i save enough money!)
(and if my mum even allow ><)

sian~i wish i could go to the beach and scream out my anger to the sea!!!

Super Junior(슈퍼주니어)_너 같은 사람 또 없어_뮤직비디오(MusicVideo)

2010-07-07T02:17:00.000-07:00

no otherMV!!! ^^ nice nice

040710 S U P E R J U N I O R - N O O T H E R

2010-07-06T03:14:00.000-07:00

2010-07-05T02:02:00.000-07:00

yooo minna!
if u have seen onee-chan's blog,
yup yup went to cosfest with family!!!
so happy can!got see one cosplay group dance to bonamana!!!
i was damn happy and shocked!
stunned there while watching them dance,then onee-chan called out to me :(
never see the full dance~~
nvm wai!another thing happy about cosplay stuff!
mum approves of me for cosplaying~
mum:why u never go cosplay like that?
me:i got the wig already but dunt have costume
mum:really?why never show me?next time go cosplay
me:O_O 8D !!!!!!
waii~
happy happy!
but sleepy sleepy!
just now went for tuition with mf,kx,dalene,linchan,joshua and matthias as tutor!^^happyhappy
didnt really do homework when went for tuition but learnt quite alot
like chem but now forgotten!8D pro rit?:P
but overalll today,
feel very moody :(
kangin oppa have left for army!
if only i went there and bid him goodbye :(
very sad now :'(

Super Junior - No Other (Jul,4,10)

2010-07-04T08:04:00.000-07:00

8D love the dance and of course the song!!!their voices rock!antis get lost shoo!

2010-07-02T22:23:00.000-07:00

yo minna!!wanna blog blog before going to do other stuff :P:P
yesterday:
nothing special about lessons,
except that it was the last day for miss peng!
she gave us chocolate :( how sweet!
but why didnt the class took a class photo with her?
i want!:(
haiz...
anyways~
i was informed the last minute that i am the CDI for this weeks RT
tiao shock!today then say!
i dunt even knw wat to do!
but al least i got remember the pledge!
but then no first and las parade due to rain!!
noo i wann say!!!!:(
RT per normal!
blablablabla!
tears shed!
my tears also was about to roll down
but i held on to it!(but somehow the tears came out at night!:( )
then blablablabla
kena nagged but i understand why and i've learnt frm it!
ppl make mistakes and we have to pay the price!
lesson learnt!no major mistakes would be made again!

[LIVE] 100702 Music bank Super Junior - No other

2010-07-02T22:01:00.000-07:00

2010-06-30T04:33:00.000-07:00

cute rit?

hello everynya~
im both happy and angry!!!:D:D
but mostly happy,i shouldnt be to negative rit?:3
good news:
I FINALLY GOT MY AZUNYA WIG!!!:D:D
yeas,i did take i pic of me in the wig but cannot transfer to the comp
with my sis hp that is :D
bad news:
1)pissed off with money
everything must pay one!!!!hate it luhhh!!!why cant badges be free?i knw that cant happen!but still -.- no money!scared that i cant even go to AFA
+ i cant earn money
money fly away to mostly at SJAB but nvm,the world cant go aroung without money
though my sis is angry that i have to pay alot in SJAB :(
2)stupid attitude of mine must change change change!keep on scolding siblings!just because they piss me off -.- must change change change!!!somemore scold alot today at sch! arent i suppose to be the 'angel' type of instructor?where is it?:(
3)uhhhh nth else :P actually there is luh but cant post!later everyone see :P

back to today!
stjohn day!
wake up later then i wanted
woke up at 5.30am!went out like around 6.15!
saw mum downstairs :P
wahaha stjohn day parade
nice nice
this year's stjohn day is ok ok one
no one teased stjohn and im happy abt it:D
unlike last time,keep on teasing!
maybe our reputation is getting better?
wahaha after school got CCA phototaking!wooo!
take take then change to half u for sch ndp rehearsal
got scouts and brownies!wahaha so cute!!!:D:D they do sedia also so cute :D
wahah stand so long so painful!
wahha after that change back and go drink bubble tea with Miya-chan!!!nicenice
home-ed and do admin stuff blablablabla now off to drawing!
even though i can only draw for like 15 min :P

2010-06-28T01:23:00.000-07:00

pictures pictures and pictures from the trip to universal studio!!!!!!!!!!!!all pics are frm facebook!you can see them by clicking on any member who had went there!lazy post about the trip though but it was too awesome to even type about it!!!!!^^ u can see carol-chan's blog to see where we go!!!^^ though i dunt think she has updated yet!wait for her to update!
byes~

2010-06-28T00:59:00.000-07:00

hahaha
hohohoho
hehehe
kukubara xD

2010-06-25T01:51:00.000-07:00

2010-06-24T01:34:00.000-07:00

Super junior are together as awhole,as a family.they are really close.but
what about the std?they are really close to me,for me,they are like family but do they even think of the same?to me,they are the only
people i have to rely on...what will happen after POP?after
graduation?will we be able to see each other again...i guess not...since im the only one who thinks of this,us as a family never wanting to
seperate...i really wonder what will happen to me when i have finally
graduate?lets just cherish the moments for now,make the best out of it!!

2010-06-21T02:32:00.000-07:00

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IM BACK FROM SNCO CAMP!!!!!^^ these guys made me happy!^^

Friday:
first day of camp!OMG my heart kept on beating so fast fast today!!!!
woke up around 5++ then met Miya-chan and rai-chan at rai-chan's house before heading out to pei cai sec!!!
rai-chan's father send us there!thks once again!wanted to sleep on the way but my heart kept on beating so fast was super scared luhhh!!! X(
reached pei cai saw qing,kee,lin and carol straight away run to them!so lucky we are here together
waaah sat down awhile but so many millipede everywhere!!!one of my bottles even rolled over one of them so gross!!!X(
blahblahbla
put down bags,hand in valuables and went for briefing and team allocation!
im in team 4!!!:D:Dall alone thought but at least the team is nice,except that we are very quite!
next went for lunch!!!bento :D:D at least its nice,
was starving never eat breakfeast :P
wahhaha next went for workshop then play short games and decided on a team name!ace 49!:D
after that dinner!bento again!:D
after that went bring all stuff go hall then dunno what!
start standardising stuff and blablabla!!!all was a blurr to me
just tried my best to follow and help!
blablablabla!
slept at 1++? forget liao!

saturday!:
woke up at hmmmm 5am
did PT first then went for breakfeast!bread and milo!sir wei bin's milo is the best one i've tasted in camp :D
wahaha next collected bag and rode bus to changi ferry terminal!
one happy thing about the bus ride,
when i went in the bus,BONAMANA WAS PLAYING IN THE BUS'S RADIO!!!!!
so happy!it made my day,super junior made my day!was happily listening and singing along with it!but soon the song ended D: nvm,at least can hear!
reached and went to the boat smthing!
sooo shaky!thought i was going to puke X.X
reached pulau ubin and started the amazing race!!!
went around singapore!sunplaza park,doby gaunt,national musuem(stayed at this station for like 2-3 hours X)) ,cathay orchard,tanglin mall,thion baru for today!
then walked back to hetherson secondary!was infront since team was the last to reach back!
reached and cooked maggie mee!wahaha halfcooked but still eat XP
after that went for core reflection and slept for a while
woke up in middle of the night do sentry duty then went back to sleep :D

sunday!!!:
woke up at 6am and did PT again!:D:D
ate breakfeast with team 5 and 6!
like one whole super big family sharing 3 loafs of bread!
wahaha then start off with sudoku for the amazing race!
went to Labrador park,kent ridge park, har par villa,west coast park, hort park and finally mount faber!
love my team,we supported each other to the very end till the top!
esp. when we were so high up the hills!supported me!thks with lots of love!!!:D:D
then went back on bus to pei cai sec,never sleep this time!
ate dinner!BENTO!!!
then reflections and slept at 1+

monday~:
woke up at 7am!finally can sleep longer!:D:D
PT + endurance PT!!so shiok hor~
wahaha then breakfeast,clean up area!
after that went singing cheers as a zone
so shiok so loud and noisy and so hyper!
booked out and left!
said byebyes to every single core!!so hyper and noisy together!
bus-ed back to tampines with Qing,Carol Miya and Rai and eat the tradional way of std 3s,KFC!!!
with Carol,Rai and Miya!!!
wahahaafter that bus-ed back home!
glad to be home but freaking noisy!
made my mood bad and i shouted at them :(
planned to give them a big hug!!!but opps,my mood got over me
bathed and rested? just draw in tablet!but bad things happen!!!i broke the speaker and now i cant listen to BONAMANA and other songs! must wait for allowance before we can buy new one next week :(
wahhaha now listening to Alvin and the chipmunks songs on the cd player LOL

2010-06-17T04:48:00.000-07:00

2010-06-17T03:12:00.000-07:00

gonna miss these guys when im off to camp :(:( btw,they look so cool here :D

not gonna post abt leisure camp,will post when im back!byes~

2010-06-13T01:33:00.000-07:00

GOSH...why cant ppl stop shouting and complaining for once?
im here,thinking of what to bring for the camp and tell the std what to bring
and 2 here are shouting everywhere,complaning,
another 2 shouting i dunno what things,
and one complaining to me
sheesh why cant i have a quiet place to think
and somemore no one is helping me with this -.-

2010-06-12T12:00:00.000-07:00

wahaha my first speedpaint :D:D ayako and ayaki!!!XDXD

2010-06-12T02:53:00.000-07:00

omg....poor len lol~oh look~KAITO's there :O

wahaha damn damn sleepy now but dunt wanna sleep~
wahaha slept at 6am in the morning and woke up at 12 when i had to leave for training soon...awesome :Pwahaha
trainings boring but crapping with Ling-chan at the kfc was fun~weeewahahaha
BONAMANA's awesome right?:P

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana na bagge eobtda~

2010-06-11T02:50:00.000-07:00

im done with drawing them :D:D Ayako and Ayaki!speedpaint coming up:D:Dso happy!^^

2010-06-10T23:25:00.000-07:00

waah so blur @_@ the coloured one :D

2010-06-10T22:04:00.000-07:00

wahaha so ugly :D:D
lazy talk about yesterday more like there is nth to talk about...
everyday drew,drew and drew...nth else that i can do except to read FAM
well i did....
blahh

2010-06-08T04:09:00.000-07:00

training was no fun at all,
except for playing the water guns with carol-chan!
wahaha love spraying water at her :D:D
it was such a cooling day
and for once im kinda relaxed for the day,
and smone had to go disrespecting smone and just left like that -.-
i mean,he is ur senior rit?
i cant believe u did that!
freakingly disrespecting him -.-
now i knw,u are so disrespectful -.-
watever lahh ruin my mood!
freakishly angry luhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!11111

2010-06-07T02:28:00.000-07:00

i wanna have an iPhone just because there is free Wifi :X
wahaha what's up ppl?how's the holidays~?
mine is getting more frustating!drawing almost everyday using the tablet and yet no improvement :(
yup,im angry at myself
doing silly mistakes,doing stupid and idiotic stuff
gahhh!wish i can just get out of the house and just walk till nowhere
and bump into Super Junior:Xbuahaha they should have left S'pore now :(
but hope they liked S'pore :D:D
now's just gaahhhhhh
drawing again like there is nth to do!
i wanna go out to exercise but no one accompany + i have to take care of siblings at home -.-
whatever laaa
continue with drawing

2010-06-05T22:43:00.000-07:00

2010-06-05T21:49:00.000-07:00

http://www.espin.com/mash-game.php
playing this game is fun ^^ wahaha
it somehow tells ur future,of course its for fun and not real!!^^and here is my results!
You will marry Yesung
After a wild honeymoon, you will settle down in Hokkaido in your fabulous Mansion.
You will have 1 kid together
The family will zoom around in a White convertable!^^.
You will spend your days as a Manga Artist, and live happily ever after.

buahaha yesung!!!
oh ya,Super junior will be coming to S'pore at around 3+
too bad im stuck at home!!!TT^TT
i wanna see them and welcome them!!!O>

2010-06-05T02:50:00.000-07:00

2010-06-05T00:50:00.001-07:00

2010-06-04T23:28:00.000-07:00

yooooooooooooooooooooooo~
taking a break frm drawing now~
just now morning super noisy,
scolding everywhere
now sis went of to the library alone.
thats good,at least she can see the sun outside while on the way instead of staying at home
i also wanna go out!but no one is free,most of the std went off to ndp training!i wan go out with the std!miss them lots><>< waaaaaaaaaa no one to chat with either at least got ice-cream in the fridge.
i shall go eat it to drown my sorrows down,someone asked me a question that made me super teary for no reason.Why did i even went teary?i have no idea...
well at least i held on to my tears!im not the same crybaby in the past :P im different now and i will be a better person in the future!i wont cry so easily now!promise!so dunt anyhow say that i always cry when u never see the real me ok? :P off to fetch the ice-cream weee Oooo!Ryeowook's voice :D:D

2010-06-04T03:16:00.000-07:00

super junior had thier 3rd win of Bonamana in kbs music bank's K-chart!!!XDXD congrats to Super junior!!!fighting!!!XD

2010-06-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

i forgot to do the bacground and i never saved it in photoshop